Last night, my husband said to me, "you need to blog." This coming from the man you used to tease me incessantly about my blog obsession. I replied, "why?" Why would he want me to blog when I have been spending quality time with him instead?? (um, not totally true...keep reading). His answer was, "so I know what you are thinking." I suggested he ask, or just talk to me but apparently that doesn't do the trick. Ok, if you thought I wasn't going to blog that, Mr Hubby, you don't even know who I am anymore. :) How funny. Yet, I know it's so true. Some people (family, friends) will say that they have read my posts and sometimes I get embarrassed. Which is crazy because I practically force my blog on everyone I know. Only 10% of them actually read it (shout out to my fans...all 7 of you). I get embarrassed because I really am spilling all my beans here. I have always had a journal (until I got married) and this has been that outlet for me. The big difference is that my old journals had locks on them, or were at least hidden in my underwear drawer. Which, by the way, why do we hide things in our underwear drawer? Just because it's personal and private to us only makes it obvious that that is where you are going to hide things no one else should see. That's the first place I look when I go to a friend's house...I mean...you know, when I am borrowing underwear...ok, that's just getting weird. ;)

So, I guess the idea is that I will spill out my thoughts and feelings to the world, but it's not necessarily about things that Kyle and I will talk about on a daily basis. I like blogging for that reason--you get to know people in a different way. People tend to be more honest and open, at least about some things. I'm begging those that I have forced to read my blog to start their own for this reason. I want to know what everyone is thinking deep in their hearts. I don't share it all, there are many hopes and probably even more fears that I don't share here. However, when something is on my mind and usually if it's a topic I need to explore through writing about it, you hear it first. Right here, right now.

That said, I started writing a couple posts ahead of time and "saving" them for later. I thought instead of those occasional crazy posting days and then days of dryness, I would save a few and hand them out in a timely manner. It's good, because I can look back at my crazy writing and there's always room for improvement. What I don't like about it is that when I write, it's just spilling out of me. It's not really edited or I don't really think about it much (ha) I just write. If I save it then I feel like those thoughts are stale and not as organic. I just want to leave them unpublished because their (ooh, see that? That grammatical error? I should have written "they're" but instead I committed a serious pet peeve of mine. Bear with me, as you will see below why I am currently grammatically stupid) just old thoughts. I don't think I will continue to save and wait to publish.

If my husband is missing my writing, and he knows what my life has been like the past couple weeks, I'm sure that you are all wondering what's going on. I have not abandoned you. Especially after begging you to read. There are a couple reasons for my absence. Just like Dawn and Metalia have had this same line of dialogue...have you guessed it yet? Here's what I've been up to:

• I actually picked up a book. I've been wanting to read Eat, Pray, Love for quite a while and started it on the way back from TX. I'm enjoying reading, but something's gotta give and it isn't going to be nap time
• sleeping
• napping
• sleeping in the car
• napping during Sesame Street (mother of the year award--thank you)
• NOT sleeping at 4am or 5am every morning
  
• eating waffles EVERY DAY and drinking my weight in water
• yep, we're expecting baby #3